During a recent astral projection, I came again to the Gateway of Belial, now fully open to a curtain of roiling, oily darkness. While I didn’t visually see Belial, I knew he was there and addressed him: “Belial! I am blocked. There is a belief that I am unworthy of power, of sex, of life, … read more
I’ve been engaging a process of introspection as I prepare to perform my Step 4, cataloging my resentments and fears. For many years in therapy, I’ve been told that I eschew fully owning my personal power and capitulate to the dictates of others. For some months, I have been told that I am blocked from … read more
When I encountered the Left-Hand Path (LHP) of Occult Knowledge, the socialization that came with it led me toward a certain arrogance and autonomy. The path required that I be fiercely independent and to regard myself as a magical powerhouse whose will could bend the material world. Entities were there to be treated with, but … read more
Jack Drago’s Bullpower hypnosis file is fairly popular because it hits a lot of the right memes in the right ways for those of us who are of like mind. I am a user of it, even to the extent of having a custom version, Demon Bull Slave, made for me, specifically. A buddy of mine, … read more
I have spent a lifetime seeking authentic spiritual experiences. I sought them in Catholicism, but was labelled an abomination and promised a lifetime of strife just to be accepted. I sought them in Neo-Paganism, but found that the Goddess only fueled the ego to create cults of personality. I sought them in Atheism and Intellectualism, … read more