Content regarding religion, spirituality, worship, etc.
I have a pretty scrambled head right now. The on-going effort to comply with Marbas’ commands to NoFap are doing a number on my libido and brain chemistry. I believe it’s to good effect, as I have also found myself getting more spiritually oriented and, from the 4 Step inventory, starting to address and resolve … read more
Astrologically, the planet Neptune moves retrograde through the constellation of Pisces, by Sun Sign (from 6-22 to 11-28). The planet Neptune is associated with illusion and mental illness, so, with it moving retrograde, it’s power reverses. Neptune retrograde strips illusions and promotes mental health. Appearing in Pisces only lends this energy to my own current … read more
During a recent astral projection, I came again to the Gateway of Belial, now fully open to a curtain of roiling, oily darkness. While I didn’t visually see Belial, I knew he was there and addressed him: “Belial! I am blocked. There is a belief that I am unworthy of power, of sex, of life, … read more
I’ve been engaging a process of introspection as I prepare to perform my Step 4, cataloging my resentments and fears. For many years in therapy, I’ve been told that I eschew fully owning my personal power and capitulate to the dictates of others. For some months, I have been told that I am blocked from … read more
When I encountered the Left-Hand Path (LHP) of Occult Knowledge, the socialization that came with it led me toward a certain arrogance and autonomy. The path required that I be fiercely independent and to regard myself as a magical powerhouse whose will could bend the material world. Entities were there to be treated with, but … read more
Jack Drago’s Bullpower hypnosis file is fairly popular because it hits a lot of the right memes in the right ways for those of us who are of like mind. I am a user of it, even to the extent of having a custom version, Demon Bull Slave, made for me, specifically. A buddy of mine, … read more
I have spent a lifetime seeking authentic spiritual experiences. I sought them in Catholicism, but was labelled an abomination and promised a lifetime of strife just to be accepted. I sought them in Neo-Paganism, but found that the Goddess only fueled the ego to create cults of personality. I sought them in Atheism and Intellectualism, … read more
Recent meditations on my spiritual self and on new tasks assigned to me by my patron, Marbas, led me back to imagery from an astral encounter with him from several months ago. With any growth, new information has to sink into all layers of your being, physical, emotional, mental, spiritual, to be fully assimilated. With … read more
As I described in my last post, I’ve been given a spiritual prohibition against masturbation by my principle patron, Marbas. This is the second time he’s made this request. The first time, I had an unfortunate failure of willpower and gave into the impulse. That resulted in a lengthy period of near impotence, which I … read more
When I engage my spiritual patrons, I communicate with them via creative imagery, projecting myself to another place. With the Covid-19 crisis unfolding around Atlanta, the country, and the world, my spiritual energies have been overtaken by the bandwidth needed to process the stress of daily life. I haven’t had as much spirit time as … read more