A rare confluence of logistics allowed myself and my mentor, Jack Drago, to get together physically and to perform a couple of Satanic rites together, pooling our power, cementing our relationship, and helping us both to “level up” to our next stage of ascension. It was quite an afternoon for both of us. I’m still … read more
A rare confluence of logistics allowed myself and my mentor, Jack Drago, to get together physically and to perform a couple of Satanic rites together, pooling our power, cementing our relationship, and helping us both to “level up” to our next stage of ascension. It was quite an afternoon for both of us. I’m still … read more
As magical practitioners, how we conceive of our magick, how we conceive of the results, and how we define ourselves matters greatly to the outcome of our workings. Our magick is meant to be an expression of our individual will over reality, but what happens when none of the definitions you’re presented with fit you? … read more
Back before the pandemic, a mage posted an open offer on a forum I frequent to give away a “Legion of Spirits” of a type he allowed users to specify. He would then work rituals to summon and bind the legion to a sigil, and turn them over to whomever asked to take command of … read more
After 108 days of NoFap, I relapsed. It’s hard to admit, honestly. But following the tenets of the 12-step philosophy means to engage in “ruthless honesty,” so I’m admitting the lapse. Because my pledge involved my primary patron, Marbas, I experienced both mundane and magical consequences. The lapsed happened two weeks ago and I spent … read more
It’s been three weeks and I admit that I have been blocked in my progress. While I am willing to take accountability for righting my defects, exactly how to right them has eluded me somewhat. While I have a vague vision of establishing a code of ethics and behavior to guide my actions, preventing the … read more
Last night, through a combination of logistical factors, I didn’t sleep well. I had several unsettling dreams and record them here. All of these are NSFW and are fragments that have no beginning or end. These are either just snippets of my subconscious knocked loose by my general state of arousal (Day 100 of NoFap!) … read more
As with any large spiritual change, time must be taken to synthesize the changes and weave them through your life. Surrendering to Lucifer opened me to an influx of energies, some familiar, some new and it has taken a lot to integrate these into a smooth flow. I believe that nothing comes to you unless … read more
My last post from two week ago contained a tarot reading that pointed me to the problem I had stalling out working the steps. I had felt a blockage at Step 6, the step about being willing to surrender to my greater powers. It pointed to my ego being in the way. Turns out that … read more
I’ve always been attracted to the tarot and when I have complicated questions, I sometimes engage the cards to help me understand myself and situations on a subconscious, intuitive level. I did what I thought would be enough for a Step 6, but my sponsor disagreed. He gave me some advice, but it didn’t gel. … read more