My NoFap sponsor directed me to the Narcotics Anonymous (NA) text, It Works: How and Why, to prepared for my Step 6. I picked up a copy from Amazon on my Kindle and read the Step 6 chapter. Immediately, I remembered my previous Step 6 from years ago, and more importantly, who I used to … read more
We’re living in a time of plague, the Spring and Summer of 2020, where the Covid-19 virus flows around the United States on the breath of those exposed or sick. Marbas, a demon associated with the giving and curing of disease, has been empowered. I have word from other practitioners that other demons are likewise … read more
The astral experiences I’m now calling “Riding the Pipe Horse” came to fruition last night; for reference, here is Part 1 and Part 2 of the experience. In it, I am bound in the Palace of Asmodai, having an apotheosis experience with him as part of an ongoing spiritual evolution.
Yesterday, I had the privilege of video chatting with Jack Drago, my mentor and Satanic Priest, to go over my defect inventory as part of my Step 5. While much of that conversation was private, I believe my post on the Step 4 inventory goes over much of my part of it. Because I’m documenting … read more
I have a pretty scrambled head right now. The on-going effort to comply with Marbas’ commands to NoFap are doing a number on my libido and brain chemistry. I believe it’s to good effect, as I have also found myself getting more spiritually oriented and, from the 4 Step inventory, starting to address and resolve … read more
Astrologically, the planet Neptune moves retrograde through the constellation of Pisces, by Sun Sign (from 6-22 to 11-28). The planet Neptune is associated with illusion and mental illness, so, with it moving retrograde, it’s power reverses. Neptune retrograde strips illusions and promotes mental health. Appearing in Pisces only lends this energy to my own current … read more
During a recent astral projection, I came again to the Gateway of Belial, now fully open to a curtain of roiling, oily darkness. While I didn’t visually see Belial, I knew he was there and addressed him: “Belial! I am blocked. There is a belief that I am unworthy of power, of sex, of life, … read more
I’ve been engaging a process of introspection as I prepare to perform my Step 4, cataloging my resentments and fears. For many years in therapy, I’ve been told that I eschew fully owning my personal power and capitulate to the dictates of others. For some months, I have been told that I am blocked from … read more
When I encountered the Left-Hand Path (LHP) of Occult Knowledge, the socialization that came with it led me toward a certain arrogance and autonomy. The path required that I be fiercely independent and to regard myself as a magical powerhouse whose will could bend the material world. Entities were there to be treated with, but … read more
Jack Drago’s Bullpower hypnosis file is fairly popular because it hits a lot of the right memes in the right ways for those of us who are of like mind. I am a user of it, even to the extent of having a custom version, Demon Bull Slave, made for me, specifically. A buddy of mine, … read more