While the Crescendo blares in my ears, I have been attending traditional 12-Step meetings as a means to build a sobriety practice. I attend two different meetings a week, an AA meeting and an NA meeting. I am relating to each meeting differently, but a common theme between them involves the inescapable Christian underpinnings of … read more
Whatever sobriety I had attained that made me call an end to the Quiet Crisis proved to be false; a manufacturing supply chain issue had removed the inhalants from sale and thus, I had no choice but to be sober from them. When the product returned to the shelves, my Quiet Crisis returned and raised … read more
After 108 days of NoFap, I relapsed. It’s hard to admit, honestly. But following the tenets of the 12-step philosophy means to engage in “ruthless honesty,” so I’m admitting the lapse. Because my pledge involved my primary patron, Marbas, I experienced both mundane and magical consequences. The lapsed happened two weeks ago and I spent … read more
My NoFap sponsor directed me to the Narcotics Anonymous (NA) text, It Works: How and Why, to prepared for my Step 6. I picked up a copy from Amazon on my Kindle and read the Step 6 chapter. Immediately, I remembered my previous Step 6 from years ago, and more importantly, who I used to … read more
Astrologically, the planet Neptune moves retrograde through the constellation of Pisces, by Sun Sign (from 6-22 to 11-28). The planet Neptune is associated with illusion and mental illness, so, with it moving retrograde, it’s power reverses. Neptune retrograde strips illusions and promotes mental health. Appearing in Pisces only lends this energy to my own current … read more
I have spent a lifetime seeking authentic spiritual experiences. I sought them in Catholicism, but was labelled an abomination and promised a lifetime of strife just to be accepted. I sought them in Neo-Paganism, but found that the Goddess only fueled the ego to create cults of personality. I sought them in Atheism and Intellectualism, … read more
As I described in my last post, I’ve been given a spiritual prohibition against masturbation by my principle patron, Marbas. This is the second time he’s made this request. The first time, I had an unfortunate failure of willpower and gave into the impulse. That resulted in a lengthy period of near impotence, which I … read more