My last post from two week ago contained a tarot reading that pointed me to the problem I had stalling out working the steps. I had felt a blockage at Step 6, the step about being willing to surrender to my greater powers. It pointed to my ego being in the way. Turns out that … read more
I’ve always been attracted to the tarot and when I have complicated questions, I sometimes engage the cards to help me understand myself and situations on a subconscious, intuitive level. I did what I thought would be enough for a Step 6, but my sponsor disagreed. He gave me some advice, but it didn’t gel. … read more
My NoFap sponsor directed me to the Narcotics Anonymous (NA) text, It Works: How and Why, to prepared for my Step 6. I picked up a copy from Amazon on my Kindle and read the Step 6 chapter. Immediately, I remembered my previous Step 6 from years ago, and more importantly, who I used to … read more
We’re living in a time of plague, the Spring and Summer of 2020, where the Covid-19 virus flows around the United States on the breath of those exposed or sick. Marbas, a demon associated with the giving and curing of disease, has been empowered. I have word from other practitioners that other demons are likewise … read more
The astral experiences I’m now calling “Riding the Pipe Horse” came to fruition last night; for reference, here is Part 1 and Part 2 of the experience. In it, I am bound in the Palace of Asmodai, having an apotheosis experience with him as part of an ongoing spiritual evolution.
Yesterday, I had the privilege of video chatting with Jack Drago, my mentor and Satanic Priest, to go over my defect inventory as part of my Step 5. While much of that conversation was private, I believe my post on the Step 4 inventory goes over much of my part of it. Because I’m documenting … read more
I have a pretty scrambled head right now. The on-going effort to comply with Marbas’ commands to NoFap are doing a number on my libido and brain chemistry. I believe it’s to good effect, as I have also found myself getting more spiritually oriented and, from the 4 Step inventory, starting to address and resolve … read more