The astral experiences I’m now calling “Riding the Pipe Horse” came to fruition last night; for reference, here is Part 1 and Part 2 of the experience. In it, I am bound in the Palace of Asmodai, having an apotheosis experience with him as part of an ongoing spiritual evolution.
Yesterday, I had the privilege of video chatting with Jack Drago, my mentor and Satanic Priest, to go over my defect inventory as part of my Step 5. While much of that conversation was private, I believe my post on the Step 4 inventory goes over much of my part of it. Because I’m documenting … read more
I have a pretty scrambled head right now. The on-going effort to comply with Marbas’ commands to NoFap are doing a number on my libido and brain chemistry. I believe it’s to good effect, as I have also found myself getting more spiritually oriented and, from the 4 Step inventory, starting to address and resolve … read more
I’ve been engaging a process of introspection as I prepare to perform my Step 4, cataloging my resentments and fears. For many years in therapy, I’ve been told that I eschew fully owning my personal power and capitulate to the dictates of others. For some months, I have been told that I am blocked from … read more
I have spent a lifetime seeking authentic spiritual experiences. I sought them in Catholicism, but was labelled an abomination and promised a lifetime of strife just to be accepted. I sought them in Neo-Paganism, but found that the Goddess only fueled the ego to create cults of personality. I sought them in Atheism and Intellectualism, … read more
Recent meditations on my spiritual self and on new tasks assigned to me by my patron, Marbas, led me back to imagery from an astral encounter with him from several months ago. With any growth, new information has to sink into all layers of your being, physical, emotional, mental, spiritual, to be fully assimilated. With … read more
When I engage my spiritual patrons, I communicate with them via creative imagery, projecting myself to another place. With the Covid-19 crisis unfolding around Atlanta, the country, and the world, my spiritual energies have been overtaken by the bandwidth needed to process the stress of daily life. I haven’t had as much spirit time as … read more
Visions and Paths When I first started working with the intrinsic energy that humankind possesses (magic), I did it through meditation and what I called “visionquesting.” I know that the term “visionquest” has a specific meaning to Native cultures, and I realize that what I was doing wasn’t truly going on a visionquest, but the … read more